For many years, I lived in survival mode. I was emotionally lost — swinging between pain, denial, and the desperate need to feel safe. I didn’t even realize I was codependent. I didn’t know I was avoiding reality. I thought I was just trying to protect myself… but the truth is, I had become disconnected — not just from others, but from myself.
I was desperate for love. I kept searching for it in people, places, and moments that couldn’t hold me the way I needed.
But in the end, I found it within myself.
Looking back now, I can see that I wasn’t crazy. I was traumatized.
I wasn’t weak. I was a child trying to survive in an unsafe world.
It took years — and I mean years — of facing painful memories, breaking cycles, and finally beginning to heal from what I had suppressed: child abuse, CPTSD, domestic violence, emotional neglect, depression, emotional codependency, and avoidance.
And little by little, I’ve found something I never thought I’d have — peace.
Not a perfect life. Not total closure. But emotional groundedness.
Clarity. Stability. A deeper connection with my soul.
For the first time, I can see the truth with objectivity — not from a place of blame or fantasy, but from a place of understanding.
This book is my story, but it’s also a message to anyone who has ever felt broken, unseen, ashamed, or silenced.
I know how hard it is to heal.
I know how alone it can feel.
And I also know… it’s possible.
My deepest hope is that in these pages, you find reflection, understanding, and maybe even a path back to your own light.
If I could find peace after everything, so can you.
You’re not alone.